the Constant

Months and Months

So much has been going on. So many steps. I will recount them in a later post. Until then, please link to, stay connected and/or read this article of my friend.

http://www.egyptindependent.com/node/713306

Been a Minute not in Movement (…but not really)

Soooooooooooo, I really wanted to share how things changed and/or grew to be, after the fast. I wrote like two journal entries in, and I was like “naaah!! I don’t want to really share anymore about that damn fast”. Though I must admit, that was just out of being tired of the actual action of writing about it more, and not because I disliked the fast at all. To tell a little bit, I am very thankful, happy, grateful and touched by ALL in which the fast did/done for me. And seems to be continuing to do. I honestly can’t wait until my next one. Not ten days, a little short one next time. Then gradually move myself up a few days at a time.

BUUUUUUUUUT, starting today of my moderate hibernation, I am going to attempt to write some short fiction stories. I don’t write fiction really, like at all. Every time I’ve tried it turns into a small book, and it gets boring as hell and I’m all like “I don’t even want to read this shit!!!” It’s true. LMBAO!!! But, I’m going to do some research (while I am also researching f-in EMPLOYMENT) on writing techniques and a seemingly easy or smooth transition into writing short stories. I’m excited and nervous. I think I may end up sharing them, after my hibernation. I will think it about it during. And if I don’t I will share the experiences in which occurred upon said writing journey. :)

I will also share, I dunno (maybe here or on my poetry/journal blog»> Run-On Sentences ) uh, what my hibernation is actually for, like uh just more in depth. There may be some poetry, journal/thought entries. I don’t really know, but I felt like it would be nice to submerse into some writing, and also get into some OTHER artistic venues. Internally and externally. Soooo, I’m super excited about all of this. Yay!!!

Laters.

7 to 10-Day Juice Extravaganza!!! (11.11.11)

I’m all LATE and thangs. Well, I wanted so desperately to post a video but imovie hates my guts apparently because it will not record for me. I’ve tried countless times. I want to eat and over trying it. Lol.

So many things to share I don’t know where to start. First thing, I came to the conclusion that in order for me to get this healing to work the best I keep hearing, reading and knowing it can, I must work it. Though this fast is passing, working food back into a regular diet, I am still very much thankful to have experienced it. I mean c’mon, I went full on, my first fast and I did ten (well really 9 1/2) days. Yesterday, I had a really bad sugar crash because I drank two too many fruit juices back to back. Note to self and readers, PLEASE DO NOT DO THAT!!! My palette was craving something more and I thought I should submit to it, was not a great idea at all. Anyhow, had to settle things within me, get some rest, drink plenty of water and green juice, then later I shared a banana with Lisa. Actually tasting food on my tongue again didn’t come to as something that invigorating. I mean no doubt I was thrilled to chew but felt more nonchalant about eating again. Yes I want(ed) it but eh eating the banana is eating a banana. Not complaining though, it was good, I enjoyed it and I’m glad to have successfully had a nice juice feast. It was not hard nor simple, just was. If I had to do this one all over again - I would. There are definitely additional things I did not do during the fast but next time maybe I will include them and more.

Today I am feeling happy to eat. Its more like being thankful to the things I put into my mouth. Hey there, watch the puns!! Lol. No, but will be more aware of the textures of foods, as well as being aware of what I should and shouldn’t eat. Of course moderation is always number one. I’m not going to be hard on myself and immediately remove things from my diet but I will monitor how much I am taking in. I also decided that I am going to purchase a copy of Listen To Your Gut: Natural Health Solutions by Jini Patel Thompson. I’ve heard a couple of the success stories from past readers and how they’ve healed themselves, and well - well that gives me more hope. People who didn’t believe it were possible but then followed a healthier guideline in eating, to then being able to say I’m glad I was wrong. I even youtube-d some videos last night to hear the stories of folks who have found changing their diets, fasting and some who read that book, and how much it drastically changed their lives. I admit I went into the fast with an expectation on instant healing, and I know better than anybody (I should anyway) that healing doesn’t happen in just 10 days, regardless of the type of healing. It takes time, patience, dedication, discipline, and love for self in order to heal properly. And you know, I do in fact love me more than any thing. Anyway, so after the holidays and feasting on some damn good eats, hopefully, another short or longer fast will come my way. Either way I hope to have read the book in its entirety by the next fast so that I am more prepared for the other things to include and notice as I’m fasting. I also decided that I am going to purchase a small pocket type journal so that I can note what foods/drinks irritate my body. This way, as I’ve done one before, I can have updated knowledge on what foods are best for me.

The next week is a process back into eating/chewing. Getting the stomach prepared to expand again, yet all the while still healing. And upon the completion of the next week, a treat. Vegan Mexican food. The thought brings a bit of water to my eyes. I-I don’t even know how to contain myself. All I’ve been craving is Mexican food, and someone with creativity, intelligence, a love for food, and health and apparently me and Lisa, and tons more people, decided to open a Vegan Mexican restaurant. I shall make sure they know how much my tummy, mind, and spirit will love them. Oh gawd!!! Laying in bed looking at vegan Mexican dishes, warms my SOUL!!!

SO ALL, Until the next Constant, the next journey, the next footsteps…..Enjoy life, enjoy self, and enjoy others. Be kind to your everything, what positives you give to them, they will give in return. I feel connected.

** love and loved **

{Oh, happy 11-11-11!!

7 to 10-Day Juice Extravaganza!!! (days 7, 8 and 9)

Well, there are a bunch of feelings happening within but I’m going to make this blog short and give you a bit more tomorrow. (video)

I’m not listing juices for days 7 - 10. Face it, at this point the juices are pretty much repetitious. Although, some are still very good. Uh, actually today which is the ninth day of no eating I’ve had a lot on my mind and I was trying to get a video for this blog but my computer, well imovie failed me. So I will not state too much here, because I want to record a video damnit. Ha. “So why post today if you ain’t got shit to say then Rhae?” But I do have some things to share, and I will list them below.

- friends are awesome, never take them for granted
- Lisa is awesome, she has helped me begin a stage to a continuous journey on healing my body
- the Omega Juicer is also awesome - some day I shall have my own
- I am awesome, because I refuse to give up (its a curse and a blessing…accepted balance) :P
- there is sanity INsanity (just something I thought of last night)
- I love this painting

7 to 10-Day Juice Extravaganza!!! (days 5 and 6)

A juice meal fit for a king….King Rhaaaae!!

I love Garlic. Sometimes I’ll even eat a little piece. I know its going to burn a tinge but I love that instant feeling anyway. It actually, in some way and form, makes me feel alive. I’ll comment to self how hot it is and drink a good amount of water if I have to, but nonetheless still love it. This morning, November 5, 2011 my breakfast juice smelled like an actual meal. That bit of Garlic did wonders for my mental psyche. It felt much like I was having a meal of food, though yes nothing to chew. My body and mind are happy with today’s start juice. Actually, to toot my own horn, I made some good juice for Lisa as well. We are becoming like juice pros over here.


Garlic and Colitis: Healing, antibiotic, anticancer, digestive stimulant, anti-parasite; and recommended to be used in daily diet. (yay!) I tried to record my “I Love Garlic Juice” video but for some odd reason it wouldn’t record any sound.

breakfast juice: Garlic, Watercress, Asparagus, Spinach, Cranberries, Raspberries, Apples, a Tomato and a Carrot 

lunch juice: (hmmm, can’t recall!!)

dinner juice X 2: (hmmm, also can’t recall one of the juices) Cantaloupe, Pear, and Cranberries


11/6/11

I have decided to go a few days further. I will reintroduce food into my diet 11/11/11. There are a couple reasons why that date. The first is plain silly, I mean its the numbers in general. Why not. The second is because that date signifies a great amount of spiritual energy. The universe, as well as the world will be in a portal (if you will) of change. We can already look back at events that occurred, this year alone, to see how much changes “we” as a people have gone through. You could also of course google the numerology of the significant 11/11/11 date. I must admit though there are some things that I do not buy into and somethings I have to experience to accept, within the 11-11-11 day. I have felt for most my life a great connection to spiritual things. It use to be something in which I was too embarrassed to discuss, I am thankful that I’ve out grown such a thing. It is often though a touchy subject to encounter, everyone of course have their own opinions and feelings about such matters. I respect that, as I ask the same. I just know that, as I thought of extending my juice fast that I hope to gain some additional enlightenment to other changes presenting themselves into my life.

As mentioned before, this fast is to help me heal my body, heal this colitis. I recall that at the beginning of my bout with Colitis one of the main things that use to sorta haunt me, was whether or not I would ever be able to have children. Of course there was the initial fear of colon cancer but then I read so many stories of others who had passed the disease on to their children. I read one in particular when blood showed up in the stool of a mother’s daughter. The child was only like 5 or 6, and this mom well she took it very hard. I guess what I’m trying to say is, for a couple years now I’ve been having a battle with baby fever. The want of motherhood, then not, then want, then not until now. Recently I have been very adamant about my desire for motherhood. I guess every parent thinks and hopes to be the best parent, well, I have that hope as well. I believe I will be a great mother and thus have been waiting along side a ticking clock for the day. Though I’m in no rush, it has been present in my thoughts a few times during this fast. My thought is, since I’m trying to heal and retrain my body how to heal itself I hope that I can continue with these fast for a few years. Possibly attempt them once a month for like 2 days. This way maybe in 2 - 4 years, when I think the journey to motherhood would begin, I would’ve trained my body, hopefully even completely healed it, in order to some day birth a non-colitis baby. It may sound completely ridiculous but it stays in my thoughts. Like should I, how damaging to a child, how selfish of me and so on. There are definitely other reasons in deciding to not have a child but in my heart’s list there are more pros than cons. I have also often wondered if it is too soon for me to think such things, but what I am trying to do is build a more stable foundation. I know that it takes one step at a time and I’m not really getting ahead of myself, I’m just trying to set my goals.

Anyway, Lisa said I am in my head more today since this extravaganza, I do suppose. Yet, just to put it out there I actually live in my head, and at times in my heart. :) Well, few more days to go, I can do it. My body hasn’t given me any indication to not do so, and unless it does my spiritual and mental will proceed. Happy healthy body - future happy healthy baby. Hmmm, should I think this?

(11/11/11:

http://numbersbyjasmin.com/2011/02/25/11111-111111/ or http://www.3ho.org/ecommunity/2011/07/the-numerology-of-11-11-11-cosmic-portal-transit-date/ )



breakfast juice X 2: Red Cabbage, Asparagus, Apples, Carrots, Cranberries + Carrots, Apples, Watercress, Spinach and Cucumber

lunch juice X 2: Apples, Celery, Cucumber, Spinach and Zucchini + Rainbow Chard, Broccoli, Spinach, Pear and Apple
dinner juice: TBA

7-Day Juice Extravaganza!!! (days 3 and 4)

Today I was sitting at my area at work, yep a job. That’s another story in itself, that is if you haven’t heard that story already. But totally thankful to Joy for just being. So anyway, I was sitting there and I my stomach was kind of growling. It was nearing my late lunch time juice, when I felt the urge. Though it was more of an urge to drink. Then I smiled. Four days it has been and I have not even attempted to indulge in food, and I loves to eat. My stomach growled and I immediately thought, “Juice!!”

The first two days food hunger was kind of an issue. My late night hanger thoughts filled my mind with beautiful images of food. Now don’t get me wrong, I don’t really have a desire at this point in becoming vegetarian, but this whole experience is allowing me to think differently about how to treat my body when it comes to my health.

I’m not big on taking medicines. I did partake in them before because I wasn’t really even given other options. And I not knowing anything about Colitis nor about how to eat better in general, didn’t do much research in that area then. Of course over the years it was like my eating habits had to change. Then the thought of having to treat my body better as it ages came into vision as well. I guess all I’m trying to say is, I’m glad to be juicing. I feel more energized, I feel light, and I’m still happy - maybe even happier. I’m glad Lisa has the magic!! I was worried before you know, yet my colon doesn’t seem to be upset with the journey I have taken her on, and that makes me happy too.

Its still new and there are still a few more days, so keep up or keep posted. Oh, and even if you’re not juicing or not considering juicing, you should still drink some damn juice. So get you a fancy lil juicer and try some of the juices posted. There are no amounts listed because it was totally done to taste, so you have to go with your own buds. Enjoy!!!

11/3/11
breakfast juice X 2: Apple, Pear, Cucumber, Cabbage and Romaine Lettuce (green juice) + Cantaloupe and Cranberries (red juice) (the second very simple, very light, very delicious!!)
lunch juice: Cabbage, Apples, Carrots, Mint, Dandelion Greens, Kiwi, Green Pepper and Brocolli
dinner juice X 2: (green juice) Romaine Lettuce, Apple, Celery, Parsley, Kale and Ginger + (red juice) Cantaloupe, Cranberries and Apple

11/4/11
breakfast juice: Carrots, Apples, Tomatoes, Green and Yellow Pepper, Brocolli, Cranberries, Dandelion Greens, Parsley, Ginger, Plum and Grapefruit
lunch juice X 1.5: Carrots, Orange, Apple and Ginger + Tomatoes, Carrots and Celery
dinner juice X 2: Apple, Pear and Pomegranate + Kiwi, Celery, Romaine Lettuce, Cucumber and Apple